4 days 'til the weekend

and the weekly countdown continues to the weekend. :)

we didn't go biking last night, it was a little too hot for us (90 degrees + humidity when i got out of work). maybe if we'd been biking all summer we would've gone, but we haven't gone since last july so we're a little (okay, a lot) out of shape. i don't think we ever went again last summer after marissa and i both ate it on the robinette's trail. that trail's insane, they don't keep the trail cut back so you're constantly dodging branches and washouts. marissa's wipeout was definitely the best - a full flip over the handle bars :) marissa you rock!!

so instead i went fishing with marissa, her dad, and bro. that was fun!! it was the first time i've ever bought a fishing license...that was weird. i always have fished without one, mainly because i never knew you had to have one until i went along fishing with friends. my dad raised me to break the law i guess...thanks dad! :D the whole license thing is kinda stupid if you ask me. it's like, here - let me pay money so i can catch fish and throw them back in the water because they're not big enough to eat...but oh well, i was legal last night and i felt guiltless!

how often i forget (sorry, changing topics here) how much i don't deserve things. i get frusterated with things or people because i feel like i've been wronged or they're not doing things like i want them to. it makes a world of difference when i remember i need to die to myself and live for Christ and God's glory. i need to die to my selfish desires and stop pouring myself into...myself and start pouring myself into others. it's how much i can honor God and help/love others, not how much i can get from other people - and get from God.

well the break time bell just rang so it's back to work. it looks like we're going to have kinda a chaotic day here today, BUT -

this is the day the Lord has made! so i will rejoice and be glad in it! :D

keep it real.
~jen~

a couple random things

this is why i refuse to camp in the U.P. (or in Alaska, for that matter):
http://www.cnn.com/2005/US/06/27/bear.attack.ap/index.html

we're finally going mountain biking tonight!! it's about time.

i've decided i'm going to take up dirt biking in place of surfing. i will still continue to love the art of surfing and to watch it and maybe some day try it, but i realized i'd rather dirt bike where i know i can still get hurt but it'll be my own fault. with surfing, you can't control when a shark or other mean creature with viscious teeth is going to attack you, drag you under, and carry you to the depths of the seas. :)

the end.

keep it real.
~jen~

wanted: to be satisfied.

a lot on my mind about church. but if i write about it i'll probably just find myself offending people and sounding like one of those pathetic bloggers that just use their blog to complain and tell about their troubles and cut down on people. i don't want to do any of that, so i'll watch my fingers (ah-ha get it? 'cause i'm typing...not speaking...so i can't watch my mouth...okay i'll stop...).

i want to be content in my church. yet every service i go to, i feel an unsettling feeling inside of me. why am i the only one who does? it must be my problem. i just want to be content.

i'm going to bed early. hopefully.

keep it real.
~jen~

driving stories

so i have quite a bit i'd like to put on here but my break time's only 15 minutes, so maybe i'll have enough self-control to make myself sit down and write a longer post tonight before the piston's game.

some weird yet interesting driving stories. just 2 actually.

1 - for some reason, a few days ago i was thinking about the time a few of us girls went down to st. petersburg, fl for spring break and marissa was driving. we were stopped at a red light, and all of a sudden marissa takes off across the intersection...while the light was still red. the rest of us started shouting, "marissa! what are you doing?!?!" and horns started honking at us, but marissa kept going, saying, "oh...was it still red?!?!" - thankfully, there was no cross traffic coming at that moment or we probably would have had our spring break cut short rather abruptly. random memory.

1 - today i was at the stop light where you turn onto the road my office is on, and right next to me was the SAME EXACT truck i had been at the same exact spot with i think last Friday. crazy. and i know it was the same exact truck because it had window sticker things on the back that i had read the 1st time i was stopped next to him. kinda crazy. it's like the big truck i used to see on the expressway on my way to work every so often that had the heiroglyphic fox on the back. that was kinda intimidating.

anyway, back to work.

keep it real.
~jen~

enter the acoustic room

last night i went to Middleton's Music to get some more picks (guitar picks). it's probably been atleast a couple years since i've been in there, but i like that place 'cause it's smaller than Guitar Center and people leave you alone :) Guitar Center is fun to go to once in awhile though, just for kicks and giggles (and to see the Taylor guitars, since Middleton's doesn't carry any...sad).

so i walk in and they've remodeled, and i find a sign that says "acoustic guitars in here" next to a doorway. i know i just went to get picks but i couldn't help myself - i entered "the acoustic room". ahhhhh. anyone who loves anything about acoustic guitars can relate to the feeling i had when i walked in there. utter happiness, glee, giddyness. here i was, the only one in the room, with tons of acoustic guitars hanging on the walls and sitting on stands, all facing me - and all tuned. no, there weren't any Taylors among the masses, but that's okay (especially since i knew there were 2 beautiful Taylors waiting for me to play at the Elyea's :) although jeff's has a broken string...sad).

man i love guitars. i walked around the entire room and looked at all the guitars, picking up and playing a couple of 'em. i saw a lot of Washburns, which will always be a favorite of mine because that was the first guitar i ever played (josh's 1st one, the green one...that got busted by the youth group :( ). that's the kinda of guitar i wanted when i went to buy my 1st real guitar (my very first guitar was a classical guitar...and it wasn't a very good guitar. but that's okay, i have a better one now). but instead i got a Samick, which is actually made by the makers of Washburns.

eventually i had to leave the acoustic room. i picked out some new picks, handed over my dollar for 'em, and headed to the Elyea's to try them out on one of the Taylors.

last night i actually drempt about the acoustic room. except all the guitars were gone and there was just a couch. what a scary dream!!!

and so ends my story. as well as my break time here at work.

keep it real.
~jen~

the great outdoors

man, what a great memorial day weekend!! check out nancy's great re-cap of it on her site at www.justsomegirl.net - the entry from May 31, 2005. yes, i'm lazy. but it's mainly 'cause i'm tired and want to go to bed early...so i can get up and go to work all over again :P fun fun :) no, it's not that bad actually, work is fun, i just wish i could be at the beach on beautiful sunny days like today.

anyway, i've been holding off from posting since the weekend because 1, i'm hardly ever home and when i am, i can't stand sitting at my computer for very long (since it's what i do all day at work). and 2, i need to cool down still from a conversation i had this weekend that i still get worked up about and furious about when i think about it. i want to talk about what it was that infuriated (is that a word? it sounds good) me, but i don't want to do it in the wrong way or say things i'll have to edit later. so i better wait until i've handled it some more.

alright, to bed i go. kinda early!!

keep it real.
~jen~