tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-82564482024-03-19T04:45:18.067-06:00get stokedget stoked about God. He's awesome.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.comBlogger432125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-21468194053596709232016-04-27T20:53:00.004-06:002016-04-27T21:10:44.271-06:00the mud pit<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">hello, blog.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">it's been 2 years. almost exactly. minus 1 day. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">my blog is like produce in my kitchen. i go in spurts where i eat every produce item i buy. nothing goes bad.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and then i over-do it. i buy bulk. i get bountiful baskets. i purchase enough food for a family of 5 when i am a non-family of...1. and before i know it, i have produce everywhere in my kitchen. and i ignore it. but i can't throw it away, because that would just be a waste. instead, i leave stuff sitting on my counter and keep checking it to see if it's molding yet, and THEN i can throw it away. but in the meantime, i just pass by it with no intention of eating it ever, but doing a quick check once in awhile to see if i can justify throwing it away yet.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">true story. i have a bowl of 5 oranges that have been sitting on my microwave since Easter, which was a month ago. those stubborn things won't mold. but i don't trust them. so, therefore, ergo, they will sit there until they show signs of rotting. because to throw them away before that point would just be a waste.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">ok so it's not exactly like my blog. but all that to say, there are random days i remember my blog and pull it up but have no intention of writing anything. 2 years later, i finally decided to write something.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">because tonight something kinda cool happened.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i was on a drive tonight (it's what i do. especially when i'm in a tough season. ...a lot of miles have been put on my car the last couple of years). trying to figure out why i couldn't get out of the slump i had found myself in. this song was next on the playlist in my car, and the driving rhythm of this part of the song caught my attention, and then the words did --</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">(play the song. Shane & Shane - Psalm 46 [Lord of Hosts]. i tried to queue it up for you at just the right part so you could feel like you were there but i don't think it worked - go to 1:28) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>O God, who makes the mountains melt</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>come wrestle us and win...</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>Lord of hosts you're with us</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>with us in the fire</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>with us in the storm...</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>You will lead us</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>thru the fiercest battle</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>oh where else would we go?</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>but with the Lord of hosts...</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">instantly this image of someone fighting/wrestling/trudging thru a m</span><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">ud pit came to mind. maybe because i had just watched a clip last night of Kacy Catanzaro in </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 24px;">"Steve Austin's Broken Skull Challenge"</span></span><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> ... but that's beside the point.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">and i am not even kidding you. as that image is going thru my head, i'm driving down the road and i glance to the right...and there's this big mud pit from all the rain we had yesterday.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">i'm seriously not even kidding. it happened in that order. and when things like that happen, you tend to not just let it pass by. instead, i pressed in and asked the Lord to show me what He was wanting to show me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">you look at this mud pit and you can easily tell that if you walk around it, especially behind it in this picture, there's dry land. this mud pit is not hindering anyone from getting anywhere, trust me. but i saw myself taking the mud pit route. struggling in the mud pit. trying to fix things in my own way. pretty much taking all the hard things of the season i'm in and drenching myself in the yuckiness of each of those things. focusing on them. determined to wrestle each one of them in a futile attempt to make sense of them in order to resolve them. dumping the mud right on over my head and struggling to take steps forward because i keep getting my flip flops stuck in the sinking hopelessness that ensues whenever you focus on all the hurts, wounds, and things you just can't...fix.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">meanwhile, Jesus is walking slowly along beside the mud pit, on the high and solid ground. waiting. always patiently waiting, with that sweet look of unconditional love in His eyes. those eyes that look on with complete fullness of love but with a slight sadness to them, as if to say, "I am waiting here and I want so badly to rescue you from that pit but you have to make the decision to let Me pull you out. Then walk with Me up here on the higher ground."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">the route where you keep your eyes fixed on Jesus (Hebrews 12:1-2) the route where the mud pit and all its yuckiness might still be there and might not be resolved, or "dried up". but it's the route where you continue to walk the high ground with your eyes fixed on Jesus and the mud pit becoming more and more at a distance. it's the route where you believe what Jesus says about you, who He says you are.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">that is the route i want to take. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">sometimes its easier to just jump on in the pit, let's just be honest. but it never goes well for you. it never goes well for me. it's hard work to stay out of the mud pit and sometimes it feels pretty much impossible to stay out of it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">but may we (may I) choose to let Jesus rescue us again and again. may it become less and less of an occurrence. because may we (may I) continue to grow more determined in keeping our eyes fixed on Jesus and following His lead - for He is the only One who will never fail us. He will never utter condemnation or hold a false notion against us. He is full of mercy, tenderness, compassion, and love. He is completely trustworthy and He will never fail us, no matter where the route takes us.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">He is the Lord of hosts. the Lord of Heaven's Armies. He's the One i want to follow.</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-28154666670194207932014-04-28T20:53:00.001-06:002014-04-28T20:53:22.993-06:00the day I made homemade mashed potatoes<p>today I made homemade mashed potatoes all on my own for the first time ever. I thought I should document it. I also cooked zucchini squash for the first time ever. score and score!</p> <p>what I didn’t know, when I cut into the potatoes to prep them, was that these were purple potatoes (I’m new in the kitchen, c’mon!). when I cut into them, I thought they were beets and I pulled out the bag to make sure the label said “potatoes”. sure enough, my mashed taters turned out to be a fun, spring-colored purple!! it made me laugh. :D this might be the coolest colored meal I’ve ever made!</p> <p><a href="http://lh5.ggpht.com/-sk_UMa0ECbk/U18UAb44o8I/AAAAAAAAA5A/8bJtfxEc8p0/s1600-h/purps%25255B5%25255D.jpg"><img title="purps" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-left: 0px; display: inline; padding-right: 0px" border="0" alt="purps" src="http://lh6.ggpht.com/-ioLV093i3f8/U18UBuvcH_I/AAAAAAAAA5I/qYsjWyOaDt8/purps_thumb%25255B2%25255D.jpg?imgmax=800" width="393" height="267"></a></p> <p>on another happy note, last Thursday night (4 nights ago), I planted my seeds in their little seed pods in hopes of having my very first garden this summer! I planted 50 edamame seeds, and then 50 more seeds (a combination of cucumbers, sugar snap peas, carrots, onions, and beets – blehhh, yuck). this morning I was BEYOND ecstatic to see little beet sprouts sproutin’ on up! throughout the day, more and more things started popping through the dirt! it’s so magical, everyone should try it!!!</p> <p>I like to think the positive words of encouragement and the happy dances that surround these trays promote quick, bountiful harvests!</p> <p><a href="http://lh5.ggpht.com/-WRGEfClc0Ug/U18UC4ayLNI/AAAAAAAAA5Q/WWa4tzW04HA/s1600-h/10259770_10101395923759948_1091565838875030953_n%25255B4%25255D.jpg"><img title="10259770_10101395923759948_1091565838875030953_n" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; float: left; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-left: 0px; display: inline; padding-right: 0px" border="0" alt="10259770_10101395923759948_1091565838875030953_n" src="http://lh6.ggpht.com/-VdydaNWyMpI/U18UEtlcWiI/AAAAAAAAA5Y/4V5Hf1Uw3fg/10259770_10101395923759948_1091565838875030953_n_thumb%25255B2%25255D.jpg?imgmax=800" width="559" align="left" height="579"></a></p> <p><a href="http://lh4.ggpht.com/-p1_cIJ2-BNc/U18UF-SdHhI/AAAAAAAAA5g/u9FHwxTaWj8/s1600-h/10173531_10101402139658238_2671885956568346863_n%25255B3%25255D.jpg"><img title="10173531_10101402139658238_2671885956568346863_n" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; float: none; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-left: auto; border-left: 0px; display: block; padding-right: 0px; margin-right: auto" border="0" alt="10173531_10101402139658238_2671885956568346863_n" src="http://lh4.ggpht.com/-PGhqJZOPVS8/U18UHr2eoGI/AAAAAAAAA5o/wOXhc-MyLHI/10173531_10101402139658238_2671885956568346863_n_thumb%25255B1%25255D.jpg?imgmax=800" width="383" height="391"></a></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-65242508436808067912014-04-22T14:36:00.001-06:002014-04-22T20:05:51.713-06:00the beauty of this moment<div> </div>I went on a quest to get wood this afternoon to build my hammock stand. <div>I may have gotten distracted by the warm sunshine...</div> <div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', helveticaneue-light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I'm at a coffee shop, enjoying a little reading outside in the sun before I continue on in my search for wood. </span></div> <div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', helveticaneue-light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">There is a beautiful, warm breeze blowing. </span></div> <div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', helveticaneue-light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">As if that's not enough, my ears perked up when they picked out the melody line of "I Shot the Sherriff" by Bob Marley playing over the speakers. My ears had tuned out the jazz music playing, until this great jazz rendition of the Bob Marley song came on. A jazz rendition of Marley?? I didn't even know such a thing existed!!</span></div> <div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', helveticaneue-light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></span></div> <div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', helveticaneue-light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">We have such a personal God that delights in giving good gifts! He knows what warms my heart - coffee, sunshine, warm breezes, and music that reminds me of the islands. </span></div> <div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', helveticaneue-light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></span></div> <div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', helveticaneue-light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif">I'm so glad I listened to that still, small whisper that said, "grab your iPad out of the car and stay awhile" as I started walking to my car to continue with errands. This was unexpected! But I suppose that's how God most often works. ;) </span></div> <div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', helveticaneue-light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"><br></span></div> <div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', helveticaneue-light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif"> <div class="separator" style="clear: both"><a style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicf8Wd0-JHmF4IDrCCoppO69kkXh2sJyByDOENsNpc4e78DzHUqHd73zZ8JX-Bd3t5k5aJWhBsgL5BDdfEM-o5K9Yur9AoqJoGGkv3r5RRh5PF-CG4qC7y2eJ35nnXXyQDG0havw/s640/blogger-image--478206581.jpg" imageanchor="1"><img style="float: none; margin-left: auto; display: block; margin-right: auto" border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicf8Wd0-JHmF4IDrCCoppO69kkXh2sJyByDOENsNpc4e78DzHUqHd73zZ8JX-Bd3t5k5aJWhBsgL5BDdfEM-o5K9Yur9AoqJoGGkv3r5RRh5PF-CG4qC7y2eJ35nnXXyQDG0havw/s640/blogger-image--478206581.jpg" width="304" height="230"></a></div> <div class="separator" style="clear: both"> </div> <div class="separator" style="clear: both">Now there's a rock/Celtic song playing! Who's up for a spontaneous Irish jig??</div><br></span></div> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-18078394177976312222014-04-21T19:35:00.001-06:002014-04-21T19:43:50.345-06:00creating<p>today I really just wanted the beach and the ocean and Jesus.</p> <p>I thought maybe I’d just drive to another state in search of a substitute for the beach and the ocean. but everywhere I could think of is just full of shopping options – and I really don’t enjoy shopping. I’m like, a professional at buyer’s regret. I’ll buy something. and then return it. true story. the guys at Guitar Center started recognizing me because I bought a guitar, then returned it. then later I bought a djembe and returned it. when I went in to buy the djembe, one of the guys goes, “so you ended up returning that guitar, huh?” – embarrassing.</p> <p>the other option was the mountains, which I’m actually really not a fan of either. oh the claustrophobic atmosphere of tight, windy roads…forests of trees blocking the beautiful sunlight…temperatures 50 degrees colder than where you started your trek… so far from food establishments… is anyone else’s heart starting to beat faster and you feel a panic attack coming on?? stay calm, close your eyes, and go to your happy place!!</p> <p>:)</p> <p>a few years ago or so, someone I hardly knew told me I was dramatic. I said, “whatever”. now I see there may have been <em>maybe</em> a little bit of truth to that statement. :)</p> <p>the point is – getting back to the point here – it was clear that I was not going to get my beach/ocean/Jesus experience in today.</p> <p>you wanna know what I did instead? I transplanted my first ever mint plant into an actual pot. I know, I know – “jen” and “plant” really don’t go together (neither do “jen” and “pot”…for the record).</p> <p>I forget how much of an outlet it can be to just create. creating/playing music is a huge outlet for me. exercising is an outlet. but I forget that I like to create outside of just music. I started trying to learn how to bake recently. unfortunately, my high school girls that come over for Bible study have been my guinea pigs. most of the time the verdict is, “…it tastes healthy” – and to that I have to agree. I haven’t mastered the art of baking good-tasting, healthy things. I tried to make my very first apple crisp last week. did you know there’s a difference between a “mound” and a “mount”? yeah. apparently you’re not supposed to create a <em>mountain</em> of apples for an apple crisp.</p> <p align="center"><a href="http://lh3.ggpht.com/-mfYOGacps0Y/U1XJT0AWppI/AAAAAAAAA4M/uUhIbrZrXMQ/s1600-h/photo%252520%2525282%252529%25255B6%25255D.jpg"><img title="photo (2)" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; float: none; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-left: auto; border-left: 0px; display: block; padding-right: 0px; margin-right: auto" border="0" alt="photo (2)" src="http://lh6.ggpht.com/-j5KA-T8Y6Lc/U1XJU32RsQI/AAAAAAAAA4U/2SIbuAFEEJs/photo%252520%2525282%252529_thumb%25255B7%25255D.jpg?imgmax=800" width="349" height="228"></a><em>for anyone wondering, this is a mount. not a mound. do not do this if you’re trying to make an apple crisp.</em></p> <p>so today I “created” by playing in dirt. and then by playing with my camera, taking pictures of what I created by playing in the dirt. my cousin has inspired me with the pictures she’s been blogging with lately.</p> <p>this is my mint plant. in a green pot. because mint is green. my roommate named him Wilbur. I don’t know why she named it – it’s not like I name inanimate objects… ok yes I do.</p> <p><a href="http://lh6.ggpht.com/-DOCYQLarq1E/U1XHakjuYeI/AAAAAAAAA34/Vo2FzilkMvE/s1600-h/mint%252520plant%25255B14%25255D.jpg"><img title="mint plant" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; float: none; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-left: auto; border-left: 0px; display: block; padding-right: 0px; margin-right: auto" border="0" alt="mint plant" src="http://lh3.ggpht.com/-lFKlUGIN4P4/U1XHbgcHhGI/AAAAAAAAA4A/90IL6PH6mrg/mint%252520plant_thumb%25255B11%25255D.jpg?imgmax=800" width="324" height="484"></a></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-53373322145897439182014-03-10T22:03:00.001-06:002014-03-10T22:03:19.381-06:00the gifts of today<p>lest i take my days for granted and overlook blessings as a given...</p> <p>-today I got to drink pure, clean water out of jugs! CLEAN water!<br>-today I got to take time to enjoy my morning coffee and talk with my Father…the Creator of the UNIVERSE. seriously?! I am so thankful for Jesus!<br>-today I was thankful for the flexibility of my job, because I could not concentrate on work this morning and so I moved on to other things after a couple hours of trying.<br>-today I got to see family! family is a gift I too often take for granted.<br>-today I got to have coffee with friends and laugh and dream and plan.<br>-today I got to listen to music and have a spontaneous dance party in my kitchen! what a gift it is to be able to hear music and be able to dance (even if I’m a white girl – I don’t even care!).<br>-today I got to taste spring! ok not literally. I got to <em>feel</em> spring. it was finally 70 degrees! 2-4” of snow forecasted for tomorrow, but that’s beside the point. :)<br>-today I experienced victory over insecurity! I experienced what it was like to act out of love and not out of fear in a situation where I normally would’ve fallen to fear! thank You, Jesus, for the victory that can only come thru You!<br>-today I was reminded of the opportunity I had to go thru YWAM a few years ago, the forever friends I made thru that experience, and the way God has completely redirected my life since then!<br>-today I am thankful for grace and for the countless ways I have experienced God’s unending grace thru fellow brothers & sisters in Christ.<br>-today I am thankful for the vehicle that I have – it’s reliable, it has a sunroof, it has heated seats, and is a blessing in so many ways! I’m thankful I even have a vehicle.<br>-today I got to experience love thru so many people, in different ways!<br>-today I was able to see the sunset – and what a magnificent one it was, too! I am so thankful I have my sight and that God delights in blowing us away with brilliant colored skies! the picture doesn’t do it justice.</p> <p><a href="http://lh3.ggpht.com/-kgNYEEb9niI/Ux6K_1xBFKI/AAAAAAAAA2U/tu_4qP2-78A/s1600-h/Sunset%2525203.10.14%25255B3%25255D.jpg"><img title="Sunset 3.10.14" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; float: none; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-left: auto; border-left: 0px; display: block; padding-right: 0px; margin-right: auto" border="0" alt="Sunset 3.10.14" src="http://lh4.ggpht.com/-fVTdxj3Ft-o/Ux6LA9OS_CI/AAAAAAAAA2c/Eo83Ur64RCY/Sunset%2525203.10.14_thumb.jpg?imgmax=800" width="244" height="184"></a></p> <p>i. love. my life.</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-7150948476863252752014-03-06T10:17:00.001-07:002014-03-06T10:17:36.900-07:00"i join with you - will you join with me"a friend posted a link to this blog via Facebook. it's something that weighs on me as well, and since someone else already wrote a good blog on it, i might as well just link to that and spend my time doing something else - like making coffee. ooh. now THAT is a great idea!! :)<br />
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<a href="http://awildernesslife.wordpress.com/2014/03/05/loving-and-understanding-your-unmarried-friends-better/">Loving and Understanding Your Unmarried Friends Better</a>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-53771211316397222732014-01-16T21:29:00.001-07:002014-01-16T21:29:14.761-07:00Letting Go<p>this is one of those songs where I swear they read my heart and composed the lyrics. I love how intimately my Father knows me. He knows that it is thru music that I most often connect. I bought this album 2-3 weeks ago, but this song didn’t stand out to me until Jesus started taking me thru a deep journey over the last week or so. this encompasses what He has been doing in my heart. letting go… oh that He would take me deeper and lead me to pursue the things He has for me, not the things I seek in vain.</p> <p><iframe height="315" src="//www.youtube.com/embed/okmxFDMYuEQ" frameborder="0" width="560" allowfullscreen></iframe></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-74299419838118007902014-01-14T22:41:00.001-07:002014-01-15T12:29:16.410-07:00a beautiful collision<p>I have this tradition of blogging on my birthday. so here I am.</p> <p>today i turned 30.</p> <p>i woke up. i waited for my senses to awaken. and then i realized my body was still intact. i hadn't started decomposing suddenly over night. i still had all my teeth. i was able to get out of bed and didn't collapse on the floor. I could smell the coffee brewing. (ok that last one’s a lie)</p> <p>turning 30 confirmed 1 thing: i am still fully much alive!</p> <p>I was overwhelmed by God’s love poured out thru so many family and friends on me today. my good friend and her 2 little girls surprised me at my front door this morning with homemade muffins, homemade cards, and – a taser! yes, seriously. you do NOT want to mess with me!! the big buff beast just got a whole lot beastier.</p> <p>the day was full of phone calls, texts, and facebook messages from family and friends. I had even kept my birthday hidden on my facebook profile and still got tons of sweet happy birthday messages! (by the way, my mom was the first to wish me happy birthday on facebook – she wins the award of best mom EVER!)</p> <p>I got to go to lunch at my favorite local mexican restaurant and my aunt & uncle surprised me and drove all the way out (like an hour and a 1/2 drive!) just to have lunch with me! they drove all that way – just to pour out love on me! I now have my very first recipe book (with recipes!!) and my very first cookbook - a smoothie and juice cookbook!!!! And I have my very first pie dish and apple crisp recipe and you can expect to call me Jen the Baker pretty soon. and my cousins bought me an extra burrito to go! I won’t go into detail why, but that extra gift meant so much to me. I am known. and I am loved.</p> <p>then french press coffee. enough said.</p> <p>I got to facetime with my sister (another, “I won’t go into detail why”, but !!!!!!!!!) and was overcome with joy at the sight of seeing my family & friends (who are also my family!) gathered to celebrate 2 birthdays (mine being one of them!).</p> <p>this is the beautiful collision.</p> <p>my pastor and his wife are vacationing down in the Keys and they have gotten to meet and spend time with my family & friends whom I dearly love. it is this beautiful collision of 2 of my worlds. the 2 worlds my heart is torn between on a daily basis. here, on a facetime call, I got to see this beautiful collision and my heart was overwhelmed with love for each and every one of them. and oh – how they poured out love on me!! it was so surreal and I LOVED seeing how God had intertwined these lives in such a short amount of time!</p> <p><a href="http://lh6.ggpht.com/-eBPHtRIg_G0/UtYfh1QM_aI/AAAAAAAAA0w/VuQDv-6x4XU/s1600-h/photo%252520%2525281%252529%25255B5%25255D.jpg"><img title="photo (1)" style="border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom-width: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; display: inline; padding-right: 0px; border-top-width: 0px" border="0" alt="photo (1)" src="http://lh5.ggpht.com/-5YQFFfsejQ8/UtYfjS2pTXI/AAAAAAAAA04/QThoVnXrrKY/photo%252520%2525281%252529_thumb%25255B2%25255D.jpg?imgmax=800" width="644" height="484"></a></p> <p>and Ben is in heaven. he wanted me to know there’s another cowboy in the Keys – a REAL one!</p> <p>I am so thankful for the family and friends God has blessed me with. I love seeing worlds collide and hearing how God is using 2 totally different worlds to encourage each other, to lift each other up, and to share each other’s burdens. I was overwhelmed later tonight, again, to hear they had all sat around the table lifting me up in prayer and thanking God for me. seriously?? I do not deserve these people!!</p> <p>and then I got to have dinner tonight at my cousin’s house and have my favorite cake ever (chocolate zucchini cake!) and drink coffee and watch Psych the Musical (EPIC). a great, low-key end to a great day.</p> <p>may this next year of life be one of becoming. one of choice (my word for 2014). one of receiving love and one of giving love. and one of embracing the every day moments that my Abba gives me. </p> <p>thank you, everyone, for loving me. :) and allowing the love of Jesus to flow out of you onto me today.</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-84165543340624066732013-12-31T07:20:00.001-07:002013-12-31T07:20:10.360-07:00to finish out 2013..."The hope of Christianity is that we get to live life like Jesus. That beautiful goodness can be ours. He can heal what has gone wrong deep inside each of us. The way He does this is to give us His goodness...We get to live His life - that is, live each day by the power of His life within us. That's the hope: you get to live that life." - John Eldredge, The Utter Relief of HolinessAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-76308027022400879442013-08-19T08:12:00.001-06:002013-08-19T08:12:45.755-06:00destination: AVP tour<p>I went out to our family’s ranch yesterday for the afternoon. I turned on the TV to put on a football game to fall asleep to. shortly after finding a game, I wondered if by some crazy chance there was any beach volleyball being broadcast. so I used the search thing on the TV and was stoked to find out the AVP Salt Lake City Open was on!! my chances of falling asleep for a nap went out the window.</p> <p>watching the women play made me want to move to SoCal and play every day at the beach.</p> <p>then the announcers were talking about how these women are over 6 feet tall.</p> <p>and my realistic hopes of becoming a pro beach volleyball player started to quickly fade. (realistic. HA.)</p> <p>but then they did a quick spotlight interview on another AVP women’s player who was on a different tour. she mentioned she was “short” for a beach volleyball player and I perked up right away! and she said she didn’t start playing until after she got married and her husband made her go to the beach to play with him – suddenly my hope returned!</p> <p>so I googled this girl to see how “short” she was, feeling like I instantly had this new inspiration to look up to.</p> <p>I’m pulling up her info on my phone, all excited about my new prospects of becoming a pro beach volleyball player. and then I find the crusher. yes, according to AVP standards, she’s “short”. but apparently, to them I must be a midget. she’s 5’8”.</p> <p>I’m 5’3”.</p> <p>and my restored dream came crashing down for the 2nd time in a span of 20 minutes.</p> <p>you would think I’d let it go after that, right?</p> <p>no. of course not!</p> <p>this morning I decided to google what the height of the shortest AVP player is.</p> <p>wait for it…</p> <p>the shortest woman AVP player is 5 feet and 3 beautiful inches tall!!!!</p> <p>ladies and gentlemen, I think I will be moving to SoCal – you can find me on the beach every day, playing on the courts. for those of you who want to support me financially so that I can play volleyball all day every day, I will write your names on my arms each game.</p> <p>well, I need to get to packin’ my bags.</p> <p> </p> <p>…no I’m not serious. but in my heart I am!!!!!</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-42573389967906315572013-08-13T21:40:00.001-06:002013-08-13T21:40:52.118-06:00He delights<p>within the course of the last week, I sold my car and bought a new one.</p> <p>no wait, there’s so much more to this story than just that! God has been taking me on this incredible, tangible journey of His intimate involvement in my life. and at the end of this post, I will share what my new car’s name is. :)</p> <p>the God who created the vast universes delights in the littlest details of our lives.</p> <p>this Truth has been drenching me like a much needed downpour.</p> <p>it all started when I went to visit some of my closest friends in Virginia. one of my friends just bought her first house this past spring and she was having a hard time deciding what color to paint her bedroom. being single, like me, she felt the all-too-familiar discouragement that comes when you need to make a decision and you don’t have someone to share the decision with – or to just make the decision for you. :) instead of going down the road of self-pity, though, she reminded herself that God cares about every detail of her life. and so she asked Him what color to paint her room. she then heard the song by 10th Avenue North called “Beloved” and it’s this song written as though it’s from Jesus to the Church, His Bride. in it, this line stuck out to her “I’ll clothe you in white, My immaculate Bride you will be". she is the Bride of Christ. we, believers and followers of Jesus Christ, are His Bride. and His blood, spilled out for us on the cross, cleanses us, making us spotless and able to come before the Most Holy and Mighty God.</p> <p>so she painted her room pure white, top to bottom, all 4 walls.</p> <p>and it. is. beautiful.</p> <p><strong>God delights in every detail of our lives.</strong></p> <p>fast forward 2 weeks (which ends up being 2 weeks ago today…as if that’s not confusing…). </p> <p>I came home from living out of a suitcase for 7 weeks. AKA I came back to reality and had to finally face the decisions I’d been putting off while I was away, one of which was deciding what to do with my car (Zeva Louise!) that got hail damage during a storm in June that dropped golf balls out of the sky. while I was away, I couldn’t decide what to do with her – whether to get her fixed with the insurance money or sell her beautiful dented up self. so the first morning I was back, I literally begged God to help me make a wise decision about this car situation. as I went thru the day, I had a couple friends encourage me to try selling Zeva – which is what I had been feeling like I should do. so I took that as God’s answer. this was on a Tuesday.</p> <p>back up like 2-3 years. I went to YWAM in Denver and met this awesome couple who were (and still are) on staff at YWAM – Will & Erika. Will loved my car when he found out that’s what I had. and I told him if I ever sold her, I’d let him know first. so even though this was 2-3 years ago, I was reminded of it and decided I should honor that commitment. so on Wednesday, I sent him an email explaining the situation and asking if he was interested at all in buying her.</p> <p>oh. my. goodness. I wish you could have experienced the excitement bursting out of Will when he got my email! this had been his dream car. no wait, it gets better. the day before, (Tuesday – the day I decided to sell my car) Will & Erika had a long car ordeal come to a close and Tuesday night Will had been online researching vehicles! whaaaat?? he was ecstatic.</p> <p><strong>God delights in every detail of our lives.</strong></p> <p>long story short, I sold Zeva to my friends! not only has she gone to a fabulous home, but it was a sweeeeet time to reconnect with these beautiful people and meet their little guy!</p> <p><a href="http://lh4.ggpht.com/-6XkiTCxe28o/Ugr8O4fOYkI/AAAAAAAAAoE/nbW0hQROcfg/s1600-h/Stricklands%252520and%252520Zeva%25255B3%25255D.jpg"><img title="Stricklands and Zeva" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; float: none; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; margin-left: auto; border-left: 0px; display: block; padding-right: 0px; margin-right: auto" border="0" alt="Stricklands and Zeva" src="http://lh4.ggpht.com/-U8mi-YM0MDM/Ugr8Pa_wtFI/AAAAAAAAAoM/DFiXP6mwDnI/Stricklands%252520and%252520Zeva_thumb%25255B1%25255D.jpg?imgmax=800" width="484" height="484"></a>so I found myself car-less. in a town where it’s probably easier to find a horse to buy than a car that you want. in an area where if you look on Craigslist, you will find more tractors and livestock for sale than vehicles.</p> <p>meanwhile, I had a friend text me, reminding me that “<strong>God delights in every detail of our lives.</strong>”</p> <p>so I moved forward, clinging to that Truth that God DOES delight in even the little details of my life. and I started praying for these things in a vehicle:</p> <ul> <li>an SUV</li> <li>good on gas (AKA…most likely a 4-cylinder)</li> <li>sunroof</li> <li>running boards</li> <li>preferably yellow :)</li></ul> <p>and so began the search. the crazy thing is, my friend, Will, insisted that I tell him what vehicles I had narrowed down my search to because he wanted to help me find a new one! I was blown away that somebody would care that much to help me in my search!</p> <p>within a day of emailing Will what I was looking for, he had found this ‘06 Honda CR-V for sale in Denver. it was a little out of my price range, but it said “or best offer”…so I emailed the guy with an offer – and he accepted it!!!</p> <p>no wait, it gets better. </p> <p>remember, <strong>God delights in every detail of our lives</strong>.</p> <p>so I had that list of what I was asking God for in this next vehicle, right? the CR-V is indeed an SUV and it has a 4-cylinder engine and decent gas mileage. and this CR-V has a sunroof AND running boards! it’s not yellow, but it’s white and it’s beautiful! the added bonus that God snuck in? it has heated seats!!!!!! Florida girl is STOKED!!!!!!!!</p> <p>the story isn’t over.</p> <p>ok so I have found this CR-V that I really want and have peace about buying. this is a Thursday, and the guy said I could come Saturday or Sunday to see it (down in Denver, a 3-hour drive). I talked to my friend (who also happens to work at the bank) and she wasn’t sure if I’d be able to get a loan and a cashier’s check all done on Friday. so as I drove to the bank Friday morning, I asked God to somehow allow everything to go thru if this was a good vehicle for me to buy, and if not, I would hold it loosely and trust Him.</p> <p><strong>God delights in every detail of our lives.</strong></p> <p>by 2pm Friday afternoon, I was leaving the bank with my loan secured and cashier’s check in hand. :) and my friend Megan said she would drive me down to Denver on Sunday to pick it up (I have amazing friends)!</p> <p>so Sunday, I bought it and drove it home!</p> <p>now we come to the naming of this new addition.</p> <p>as many of you know, my last vehicle took on quite the persona. :) Zeva Louise the Toaster was one of a kind. literally. she was the only one in the town I currently live in.</p> <p>but as I prepared to buy this new vehicle, I tried to talk myself out of naming it. I’m too old for that, right? I can’t keep naming inanimate objects.</p> <p>however, as I drove the CR-V home, I was recalling all the ways I had seen how God delights in every detail of my life lately and I wondered what names meant “He delights”, like a name that would remind me of how much God delights in me as His Child.</p> <p>as soon as that question came to mind, the name “Abbi” popped in my head.</p> <p>and I thought, “Abbi? ok first of all, I’m not naming this vehicle, and second of all, who names a car Abbi?”</p> <p>but then curiosity got to me. and I googled what “Abigail” meant.</p> <p>and just about peed my pants. (OK not literally)</p> <p>the name “Abigail” is a Biblical name with Hebrew origin and means “father’s joy” or… wait for it…</p> <p><strong>“my father’s delight”</strong></p> <p>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</p> <p>how could I not name her Abbi??</p> <p>so, without further adieu, let me introduce you to Abbi, a vehicle that is a reminder to me that the God who created the vast universes, delights in <em>me</em>. and He delights in YOU!</p> <p><a href="http://lh4.ggpht.com/-dUkAUVCkjt4/Ugr8QJ0lAmI/AAAAAAAAAoU/7p9EahTfUI8/s1600-h/Abbi%252520-%2525201st%252520day%25255B5%25255D.jpg"><img title="Abbi - 1st day" style="border-top: 0px; border-right: 0px; background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-left: 0px; border-left: 0px; display: inline; padding-right: 0px" border="0" alt="Abbi - 1st day" src="http://lh6.ggpht.com/-D1aKdLO7fN0/Ugr8QqsBc0I/AAAAAAAAAoc/DYIhf-rVYZ0/Abbi%252520-%2525201st%252520day_thumb%25255B6%25255D.jpg?imgmax=800" width="644" height="434"></a></p> <p><strong>God delights in every detail of our lives.</strong></p> <p>and He doesn’t always orchestrate things just the way we want. but He is good in everything that He does. and He has blessed me with this new vehicle!</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-14106390747451600032013-07-24T14:42:00.001-06:002013-07-24T14:42:03.245-06:00parking lot madness<p>today I was borrowing my dad’s SUV because he’s out of town and I’m in town without my car. my mom asked me to run to Home Depot to grab 2 big bags of top soil so she could finish transplanting a palm tree.</p> <p>had I known what near heart-attack inducing chaos this would cause, I would have not have agreed to do the favor.</p> <p>I go to the ol’ HD. buy the top soil. toss the heavy bags in the back of my dad’s SUV on top of miscellaneous tools he had sitting in a crate. no big deal. helpin’ my mom out. like a boss.</p> <p>I start pulling out of the parking lot and turn a corner and suddenly… </p> <p>POOF! and then what sounded like a “hoooooooooooooonk” and something letting pressure out.</p> <p>now, anyone who knows me knows how much I love sudden loud noises. this was loud enough to freak anyone out, I swear. </p> <p>so I’m ducking and still driving and quick pull back down another aisle in the parking lot and park all caddy-whompus across like 3 parking spaces. I turn the truck off and jump out – safety first, people. there was no way I was going to be caught in that thing if it exploded.</p> <p>I call my brother-in-law because my dad’s out of the country and I can’t instantly get a hold of him. the conversation went something like this:</p> <blockquote> <p>me: ANDY! something just like…I don’t even know, it sounded like it was some sort of gas explosion in the back of dad’s sequoia!!!!<br>Andy: haha, aunt jen – is this some kind of joke, like YOU were the one who let out a massive gas explosion?</p> <p>(…touche, touche)</p> <p>me: NO! I’m being serious! I don’t know what happened, it sounded like a “POOF!” and then something letting air out but it was like…super loud, like an air horn!</p></blockquote> <p>Andy went thru a number of scenarios that he thought it could have been – air in the gas tank, something with the brakes – but I kept telling him it was super loud, like a horn. thoroughly confused but knowing I was serious because of the sound of panic in my voice, he told me he’d run it by the guys he was with and he’d call me back.</p> <p>I get off the phone and it’s been like, over 5 minutes since this started. I figured since the Sequoia hadn’t exploded yet, <em>maybe</em> it was safe to open up the back and just gently look around for what may have caused this fiasco. so I pull out the top soil bags and…</p> <p>…there’s an air horn sitting under them.</p> <p>I kid you not. apparently I had put the bags right on top of it and when I turned in the parking lot, they shifted just enough to land on the horn.</p> <p>which begs the question – why would someone have an air horn hanging out with the tools in their truck?!?! that’s what I want to know.</p> <p>this concludes my story. I don’t have a grand spiritual analogy for it. I’m sure someone could think of one.</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-38228058891816706862013-07-13T15:19:00.001-06:002013-07-13T15:19:43.995-06:00AirportsSitting in the Atlanta airport, waiting to fly home to good ol' SoFla for a couple weeks. This will be the last leg of my 7 weeks living out of a suitcase! Excited to see family and lots of friends the next couple weeks, then get back out West and stay put for a little while. <div><br></div><div>I can't believe the summer God has let me have - I love my life!! He has taught me mucho, especially the last couple weeks. </div><div><br></div><div>That's all for now. :)</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-29313444799511714042013-06-08T21:08:00.001-06:002013-06-08T21:08:00.798-06:00The beginning of 7Yesterday I embarked on what is expected to be 7 weeks of greatness! :) youth missions trip, jr high camp, sr high camp, week with my parents at our ranch, week in VA visiting friends, culminating with 2 weeks in FL (1 week of work, 1 week of fun with family & friends!). <br />
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Boonie - you are a winner of a friend, i'm keepin' ya!! :) </p> <p>the poem is titled burnt orange knee socks because for the longest time, i hung on to these orange knee socks from my high school days (Rockford Rams - represent!) and i would wear them with awesome outfits (like gauchos and spongebob pajama pants). don't worry, mom, i never left the apartment in my awesome outfits. </p> <p><b>Burnt Orange Knee Socks</b> </p> <p>burnt orange knee socks<br>she’d rather hang out with jocks <p>swaying, wide gaucho pants<br>with Jack Johnson she chants <p>constantly talking to herself;<br>she can barely reach the top shelf <p>she’s intrigued by gross things<br>at the top of her lungs she sings <p>although she belts out *NSYNC<br>she doesn’t care for the color pink <p>she jabs her finger along to Kelly<br>but hates the poets Byron, Keats, and Shelley <p>she hates visiting antique shops<br>and in the winter wears flip flops <p>the fall leads to fantasy football<br>and she yells at referees on every call <p>calls against Peyton Manning at least<br>her email is the bigbuffbeast Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-24704586654573775382013-05-08T10:56:00.002-06:002013-05-08T11:01:06.093-06:00second chances<p>i don't share my own raw recordings on here often, but once in awhile i get struck by a song and i have to share it. this is one of those times. i needed this reminder of the Cross and the power of the Cross this week. you should youtube the real version, it's sweet. <iframe height="166" src="https://w.soundcloud.com/player/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fapi.soundcloud.com%2Ftracks%2F91281358" frameborder="no" width="100%" scrolling="no"></iframe>Second Chances - Rend Collective Experiment </p> <p>Verse 1: <br>My future hangs on this<br>You make preciousness from dust<br>Please don't stop creating me<br><br>Your blood offers the chance<br>To rewind to innocence<br>Reborn, perfect as a child<br><br>Chorus:<br>Oh Your cross, it changes everything<br>There my world begins again with You<br>Oh Your cross, it's where my hope restarts<br>A second chance is Heaven's heart<br><br>Verse 2:<br>When sin and ugliness<br>Collide with redemption's kiss<br>Beauty awakens by romance<br><br>Always inside this mess<br>I have found forgiveness<br>Mercy as infinite as You<br><br>Bridge:<br>Countless second chances<br>We've been given at the cross<br>Countless second chances<br>We've been given at the cross<br><br>Verse 3:<br>Fragments of brokenness<br>Salvaged by the art of grace<br>You craft life from our mistakes<br><br>Black skies of my regrets<br>Outshone by this kindness<br>New life dawns over my soul</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-14544382299924424952013-04-24T21:37:00.001-06:002013-04-25T07:46:21.160-06:00seek and find<p>this morning I read in 2 Chronicles 15 about King Asa. I love the story of King Asa leading the people of Judah and Benjamin – it’s one that I don’t recall reading before, although I’m sure I’ve heard it some time over the years. but when I read it this morning, it was like I was reading it for the first time.</p> <p>see, there’s this guy named Azariah and the Spirit of God comes upon him and he said this to King Asa:</p> <blockquote> <p>“Listen to me, Asa! Listen all you people of Judah and Benjamin! The Lord will stay with you as long as you stay with Him! Whenever you seek Him, you will find Him But if you abandon Him, He will abandon you.” (2 Chron. 15:2)</p></blockquote> <p>a little further down in the chapter, the people decide to be serious about following this advice from Azariah. it says this:</p> <blockquote> <p>“Then they entered into a covenant to seek the Lord, the God of their ancestors, with all their heart and soul. They agreed that anyone who refused to seek the Lord, the God of Israel, would be put to death – whether young or old, man or woman. They shouted out their oath of loyalty to the Lord…” (2 Chron. 15:12-14ish)</p></blockquote> <p>I can just imagine them saying, “ok – this just got real. no more lukewarm-ness. it’s all or nothing.” they actually agreed to put to death anyone who refused to seek the Lord! that’s like…I don’t know, I’d say they took their seeking the Lord pretty seriously. actually in verse 15 it says they had entered into this covenant “with all their heart”.</p> <p>and then comes the 2nd part of verse 15:</p> <blockquote> <p>“They earnestly sought after God, and they found Him. And the Lord gave them rest from their enemies on every side.”</p></blockquote> <p>ahh. the fulfillment of the promise the Spirit of God made through Azariah! they <em>earnestly sought</em> after God – with <em>all</em> their heart – and they found Him. they <em>found </em>Him. He did not stay in stealth mode. He did not withhold Himself from them. He allowed them to find Him. and He gave them rest from their enemies <em>on every side</em>.</p> <p>I love this story! I could expound a lot more, but I kind of feel like I should sit back and let the Word of God speak for itself.</p> <p>I just want to point out this one thing and then leave the rest up to the Holy Spirit. when we earnestly seek after God, we will find Him. and He gives rest, or victory, over the struggles with sin, lies, deep wounds – aka our “enemies” - in each of our lives as we earnestly seek Him.</p> <p>I want to end this with the prayer that King Asa cried out to God in 2 Chronicles 14:</p> <blockquote> <p>“O Lord, no one but you can help the powerless against the mighty! Help us, O Lord our God, for we trust in You alone. It is in Your name that we have come against this vast horde. O Lord, You are our God; do not let mere men prevail against You!”</p></blockquote> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-72392372489189689102013-04-23T20:37:00.001-06:002013-04-24T09:42:37.849-06:00com·pas·sion<p>I recently read this book called <u>A Glimpse of Jesus – The Stranger to Self-Hatred</u> by Brennan Manning. random side note: I actually finished it the same day Manning passed away. random.</p> <p>at one point, Manning says, “Biblically, compassion means action.”</p> <p>I guess I hadn’t really thought about what the word “compassion” means before. if you would’ve asked me to define it, I probably would’ve said it meant having a strong love/mercy for other people/things. I know, super profound definition. that’s how I roll.</p> <p>But “compassion means action”? I sat and thought about it. and then I pulled out my big honkin’ concordance (yes, it’s the one with a crashing ocean wave on the front – would you expect any different?). suddenly I had an urge to study this statement.</p> <p>so I looked up the word “compassion” and specifically looked at all the times it was associated with Jesus:</p> <p>-Matt. 14:14 –> Jesus had compassion and healed the sick.<br>-Matt. 15:32 –> Jesus had compassion and fed the hungry crowd of 4,000 with 7 loaves and a few small fish.<br>-Matt. 20:34 –> Jesus had compassion and healed the 2 blind men.<br>-Mark 1:41 –> Jesus was filled with compassion and healed the man w/leprosy.<br>-Mark 6:34 –> Jesus had compassion on the large crowd of 5,000 because they were like sheep without a shepherd. So He began teaching them and then fed them with 5 loaves and 2 small fish.<br>-Luke 15:20 –> The father was filled with compassion and welcomed his prodigal son home with great celebration.</p> <p>every instance of Jesus and this word “compassion” was connected with action. no, like really – <u>every</u> instance. it wasn’t that He saw these people in need and thought, “oh, I feel bad for that person” – no. He acted upon that deep compulsion to show mercy.</p> <p>ok let’s take it 1 step deeper. that’s right, I’m goin’ Greek on ya. gettin’ my Greek on.</p> <p>the Greek word for “compassion” used in all the above Scripture is “splanchnizomai” – which looks like a totally fun word to try and say. it means “to have compassion on, to have pity on” – ok, not really profound. BUT – directly under that word is the word “splanchnon”, which Manning said is the root of splanchnizomai or related to it or…oh, something like that. </p> <blockquote> <p>“splanchnon” means: inward parts of body; intestines; of emotion</p></blockquote> <p>it implies that this compassion Jesus was filled with was a deep emotion coming from the innermost parts of His body, deep within His gut. He was so wrecked with this compulsion to relieve suffering that He <em>had</em> to do something.</p> <p>and look what true compassion drove Him to do! He performed miracles! He did amazing things, to the glory of His Father! and just as the father was moved with compassion to throw his prodigal son an extravagant celebration, so the Father rejoices when one lost child returns to Him!</p> <p>it was true, authentic compassion that drove Jesus to the greatest act of compassion ever known to man – He was crucified, died, and rose again to conquer death, sin, hell…all for us to have this incredible gift of being adopted as the very sons and daughters of the Living God should we choose to believe in Him and accept this free, amazing, incomparable gift.</p> <p>as we are to follow in the footsteps of the Messiah, so should we show compassion to others. may we be seeking to be ever-growing in our sensitivity to the needs of those around us. may our hearts match the heart of our Savior. may we be moved in the very depths of our being to acts of mercy and grace – and may we act.</p> <p>compassion means action.</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-87459600723830594882013-04-10T20:37:00.001-06:002013-04-11T07:33:08.977-06:00kickin’ excusesthis week I have done things I’ve never done before…<br />
I made my first meal ever in a crockpot. and then I shared it with people. and it was edible. like, they ate it. and I ate it. and no one got sick. and we didn’t have to order pizza. I even messed up and it still turned out (I started it cooking in high instead of low – and remembered about 4 hours later that it was supposed to be on low for 6-8 hours…oops).<br />
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I made homemade bread for the first time in my life. spelt bread. using a dutch oven. and it totally turned out. like, it really looks like a real loaf of bread (except…round…). actually I messed this up too – I put in 2 1/2 tablespoons of salt instead of 2 1/2 teaspoons of salt…apparently, there’s quite a difference. ;) so, my bread’s a little salty – I like to think it’d be perfect for the sodium-deficient people in this world. it’s still edible, just…you know, if you like salty bread…<br />
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<a href="http://lh5.ggpht.com/-MnCCzQwnkVw/UWYhyutY0bI/AAAAAAAAAlw/HO92nZ-38TQ/s1600-h/IMG_5590%25255B1%25255D%25255B4%25255D.jpg"><img align="left" alt="IMG_5590[1]" border="0" height="244" src="http://lh4.ggpht.com/-QqYfkRo2sQA/UWYhzVCkD3I/AAAAAAAAAl4/FnmokB5uq5o/IMG_5590%25255B1%25255D_thumb%25255B4%25255D.jpg?imgmax=800" style="background-image: none; border-bottom: 0px; border-left: 0px; border-right: 0px; border-top: 0px; display: inline; float: left; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;" title="IMG_5590[1]" width="215" /></a>and tonight I maybe homemade popcorn for the first time all by myself. I don’t know if it’s considered homemade. it’s not like I went and grew the corn, shucked it, and dried the kernels out myself. but I put oil in a pot and heated it and then threw the kernels in and shook it around for awhile. it was so fun, especially when I tried what my cousin had warned me beforehand not to do – I lifted the lid a teeny bit to see what was going on inside (ok so I’m a curious individual) and I was nearly attacked by flying popcorn. quite the adrenaline rush. I may have let a little squeal of excitement from narrowly missing being accosted by flying kernels. but it totally turned out and is edible and I’m snacking on it right now as I write this. it’s a little crunchy…I’m not sure why that is, but still – it’d edible!<br />
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why all this sudden burst of trying out domesticated things?<br />
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it has been brought to my attention recently, multiple times, that I have a lot of excuses. I give a lot of excuses for not doing things or not trying things. and I don’t even realize I do it!! how maddening. when I start seeing all the areas I make excuses in, I really don’t like who I’ve allowed myself to become (or NOT become, for that matter).<br />
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so I’m kickin’ excuses. and it starts with the small things – like learning to cook/bake/make food other than black beans & rice.<br />
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and it moves to the bigger things. I read this in a Brennan Manning book today, called <u>A Glimpse of Jesus – The Stranger to Self-Hatred</u>: “Procrastination means that we stop growing for an undetermined length of time; we get stuck… The conscious awareness of our resistance to grace and the refusal to become who we really are brings a sense of oppression.” the book? rocking my world. Oh the compassion and grace of our GREAT and MAGNIFICENT GOD! maybe I’ll sit down and write a post about all the gracious repair God is doing on my heart thru His Truth in this book.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-85617876585474181682013-04-08T20:51:00.001-06:002013-04-08T20:51:45.017-06:00SoakingSnow storm goin' down outside (this time it appears we might actually get snow). Super thankful for moisture in any form - we are in desperate need of it. <br />
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It's nights like these I find myself able to take a break from the busyness of life. We cancelled Girls' Bible study because of the weather. I shut my laptop off. Curled up under a blanket with a great book (Who Do You Think You Are by Mark Driscoll) and a cup of decaf coffee, Josh Garrels on "play all" and "shuffle". I keep finding myself closing my eyes and escaping back to my home in the Keys. Josh Garrels, you take me back every time - super stealth. Good times all around. <br />
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I love how the Holy Spirit moves in and thru the body of Christ to speak to us!</p> <p>absolutely needed to read this post today to regain perspective – may our brokenness magnify the cross!</p> <p><a title="http://thesesoulstirrings.blogspot.com/2013/03/jesus-was-broken-for-me.html" href="http://thesesoulstirrings.blogspot.com/2013/03/jesus-was-broken-for-me.html">http://thesesoulstirrings.blogspot.com/2013/03/jesus-was-broken-for-me.html</a></p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-89933941746498951202013-03-22T08:57:00.001-06:002013-03-22T08:57:10.925-06:00why I love my naturopath doctor<p>I went to my naturopath doctor yesterday (Dr. Dan) for a normal, maintenance check-up.</p> <p>-my ankle has never fully healed from spraining it a year ago. I finally decided I might as well ask him if he could test it to see if it wanted something. sure enough, my ankle was angry. Dr. Dan tried a lot of different tests on it and wasn’t finding what it wanted. but he didn’t give up. he tried a 3rd round of tests and BAM! found a match. I’m now taking a total joint supplement to try and heal ‘er up the rest of the way. expensive bottle of supplements…but worth it if it heals it back up.</p> <p>-apparently, the parasite I had back in january is a hardy little booger and is still clinging on for dear life. I don’t feel bad for the thing. he must die. the fact that there is a parasite in my body creeps me out and if I dwell on it too long, I’ll probably throw up. which may not be a bad thing. maybe it’d dislodge him… hmm… that might not be a bad idea, actually…</p> <p>HA – totally kidding.</p> <p>Dr. Dan put me on a stronger parasite killer supplement, but he also told me I should claim my parasite on my taxes (as a dependent). I thought this was a marvelous idea, maybe I’d actually get money back. except I already filed my taxes. I could, however, file an amendment… but we (me, Dr. Dan, and my friend Kendra who was also there) decided that then my parasite required a name. so we named him Pablo. “Helll-lo Pablo, you keel my eensides…preeeepare to die!” (in my very best Spanish accent)</p> <p>-and finally, the most exciting news from my visit (because normally I wouldn’t blog about my trip to the naturopath dr because generally that would be lame) --- after being born with no sense of smell and living my whole life with really no concept of what “smell” is like….drum roll please… I still can’t smell. HA! NO! wait! Dr. Dan says he can fix my smeller!!! WHAT?! YES! apparently he did this laser-to-the-back-of-the-head treatment on a patient like 10 years ago who had no sense of smell and it fixed it! I’m not totally convinced it will work for me, but I figure I might as well try it. so he is going to do some research and get back to me. if he’s able to fix my smeller, trust me – you’ll know. I will probably post approximately 1,057 different blog entries about things I’m smelling.</p> <p>after all this, however, I want to be clear that my faith is not in human doctors or their supplements/antibiotics/whatever remedies. God is the Ultimate Healer and He is the one to receive all glory and praise. when He heals, He’s good. and when He chooses not to heal, He’s <em>still</em> good. but I do really like the naturopath way of going about taking care of our bodies – doing it the natural way using natural elements of God’s creation.</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-28676386402268094622013-03-17T15:10:00.001-06:002013-03-17T15:10:13.347-06:00community – transparency<p>I was having coffee with some friends the other day and we were laughing about one friend’s interesting morning visiting a new church. he had met this man and soon after starting a conversation with him, the man pulled up his shirt and started showing my friend his scars and telling him stories. needless to say, it provided an awkward yet interesting situation. :)</p> <p>it reminded me of when I was in Norway a couple years ago. I was in Norway for a few weeks as part of my YWAM DTS outreach. part of our group was serving at this one church while we were there, and one evening we were hanging out at the church’s café talking with people. this guy, Sven, comes over to our table and starts joining in our conversation and all was going well until I asked about one of his tattoos on his arm. it was of a scorpion and, having lived where scorpions are huge and disgusting, I was intrigued by why he would want a scorpion on his arm. he said something about how he just liked them, and before I knew it, he had taken his shirt completely off to reveal a myriad of tattoos all over his body – eager to tell me about each tattoo. so here I am, sitting in a church café with a shirtless, tattooed guy standing in front of me. some might consider the situation awkward. I would confirm that yes – it was, indeed, very awkward. not wanting to offend the guy, I tried to act interested in his tattoo stories even though inwardly I was hoping someone would come to my rescue. thankfully, before too much time had passed, another guy from the church came over and told Sven he needed to put his clothes back on – and then apologized on behalf of his friend. :) </p> <p>though both of these situations were humorous, they also made me think.</p> <p>church so often becomes this place where we wear our good clothes and put on our masks each week to try and show that everything’s fine. we try to hide our dirt, our wounds, our scars. we run into someone from church at the grocery store and hope they can’t tell we totally just lost our patience on someone or had just been having an emotional breakdown only minutes before getting to the store. why do we feel like we need to pretend everything is always fine, instead of being real & acknowledging that we are human?</p> <p>I think we try to hide our wounds & our scars because we see them as signs of our weakness. we’re afraid that if anyone actually knew we had these hurts, these struggles – they wouldn’t accept us. all the while, each one of us has our own share of wounds.</p> <p>there is something profound about being transparent with other Christ-followers about our realness. it can be ugly. it can be painful. it can feel awkward & embarrassing. but when we live real, transparent lives with each other, we are reminded that we’re not alone in this journey of life. relationships go deeper. friends come along side you and say, “hey – you don’t have to walk thru this valley alone.”</p> <p>I believe Jesus often uses community to bring healing and maturity to each of our lives. we encourage one another. we pray for one another. we serve one another. we give to one another. we challenge one another. and yes, in love, we even confront one another when necessary.</p> <p>but it is only when we are transparent with our wounds, scars, hurts, & struggles that real, life-giving community takes place. and it is a beautiful thing.</p> <p>love God. love people. and be real.</p> Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-72450969314106383902013-03-14T22:23:00.001-06:002013-03-14T22:23:41.085-06:00seeking balanceso in an effort to bring more balance to my life, i decided this week that i would not work past 8pm anymore. and it went really good for like 3 days. i loved it, it was so freeing! i came home from a dinner meeting one night around 8:30pm and normally i would have made coffee and tried to crank out the remaining couple hours of work that i needed to finish. but i didn't. instead, i read.<br />
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i'm lovin' this 8pm no-more-working thing!<br />
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except i totally blew it tonight. :P<br />
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maybe there are some days where there really just are not enough hours in the day, and so you have to work into the night.<br />
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oh well. i will try again tomorrow. :)<br />
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for now, i am going 10 toes up in search of sleep.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8256448.post-89017104049422032802013-03-05T22:16:00.001-07:002013-03-06T07:51:42.717-07:00Today.Today I was going to be flying home to Florida for a week to work.<br />
And to see my niece (Lucy) perform in her first community theater production - The Sound of Music (she plays Marta!). <br />
And to meet & possibly hang out with Tim Tebow (not even joking).<br />
And to see great family and friends. <br />
And to make some really decent money working a full week. <br />
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And my ticket would have been paid for by my work. <br />
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This would've been my third trip to Florida this winter (I love my life!!). <br />
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And I decided to turn it all down. And cried immediately after making that decision. :) and then I woke up the next morning to snow. HA. <br />
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For whatever reason, I didn't have peace about going. My responsibilities and opportunities here have like, quadruplified. I don't know why, but I felt like God was asking me to choose to stay put and be faithful and responsible with what He has given me to be a part of up here. It was a super hard decision. But I believe that His plan is far better than my own. <br />
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Today I would have been flying a couple thousand miles to a much warmer, greener, tropical-er climate. But God is so good. He gave me the gift of an afternoon going to Cheyenne with Cristine & Mika. He takes care of me. :) this sacrifice is nothing compared to what God gave thru His Son, Jesus, in order to adopt me as His own. <br />
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He is worth it all. <br />
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To my family and friends in Los Cayos - enjoy this weekend. ;) oh - and go see Lucy in the Sound of Music!!!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07583180517681457322noreply@blogger.com0