i love lucy.

i’ve been house sitting all week (done today – CELEBRATE!) for 2 little dogs.  yesterday i was at my family’s house and had to go back to the house and let the dogs out.  i started my car to leave my family’s house and lucy comes running down the stairs asking if she can go.

me, being the good aunt that i am, inwardly did not want her to go (ha).  in the past when i’ve taken her with me to take care of dogs, every time she’s freaked out as soon as the dog looks at her and it’s just mad chaos as the dog’s barking, lucy’s crying, and i’m trying to figure out who to take care of first.

so when she asked, i asked her, “are you going to freak out on me when you see the dogs?” (…i really need to work on being nicer).  and she shook her head no and so i took her in to town with me.

as soon as i opened the door to the house and lucy saw the dogs, she wouldn’t come inside.  so i left her outside while i got the dogs on their leashes (mind you, they’re tiny – shi-tzus or something).  i come out of the house with the dogs and naturally they’re barking and all excited because they see someone new.  lucy starts backing away and i can tell she’s on the verge of breaking out in tears.  so i firmly said, “Lucy – you told me you were not going to freak out.  Now come on.” (…i REALLY need to work on being nicer, did i mention that?)

and what happened next i hope i never forget (hence the blog to remind me).  i saw like a switch get flipped in my niece.  in an instant, i could see the determination to not give in to fear come over her and she walked straight over to me calmly but quickly and we took the dogs on a short walk.

i wish i could’ve captured that moment so everyone could see.  her whole demeanor just like…BAM – switched from on the verge of freaking out to “OK.  I’m going to just do this.”  and she did.   and she was totally fine.  the whole time i knew she would be fine, the dogs would not hurt her (they’re TINY!) and that’s what frustrates me when she freaks out like that – she’s not trusting us when we know unless some crazy, random accident happens, we are not going to let anything happen to her.

“OK.  I’m going to just do this and trust that You have my back.” – what a great mindset to have with God, right?  i have no idea how many times i’ve said “no” when was God trying to get me to trust Him and step out.  and i still do that way too much.